When I’m not feeling well, I feel like pushing people away. It’s almost as if I’m being told by someone that I don’t deserve to have anyone who cares about me, and I feel the urge to push away anyonewho tries.
And as soon as I step outside my apartment, all I want to do is go back inside and hide there.
I fight that feeling as much as I can, but sometimes I end up self-sabotaging relationships after all.
I know it’s just the illness trying to win over me, as one of the main ‘voices’ hates me and wants me to be miserable, but I sometimes have a hard time remembering that.
How do you guys cope with that feeling? How do you keep yourself from pushing people away?