I was 14 when I developed this illness, soon to be 23.
All I use to know/people who I’ve known went to college have life’s/ some married, people i know all grown up and I’m just so damn depressed.
And I’ve done like nothing with my life, living in a schiz mind/world my ■■■■■■■ head can’t even keep track of time. Not even in reality man no real life, just cooned in my head living with parents.
Just unreal disillusioned hating myself and my life mind, just a big reality check for me.
Feel really depressed, just don’t know what to do right now, don’t know what I’m ■■■■■■■ doing with my life , realistically can’t live in this continuous unreality anymore.
Thoughts comments, any experiences with life loss, can’t get over this hump.
hang on man…if you are on meds keep taking them !! work with your pdoc on the unreality and be honest with him/her…I wish you the best…take courage and keep your life !! you are so young and life can turn on a dime. cheer up…your pdoc can help you if you let them.
i’m real sorry you’re not feeling so good. i’m wishing you the best of luck. a hot shower and nice (soothing) music always helps me, at least for a little while
Yes this illness is very difficult to deal with. But many people are able to overcome it and lead productive, happy lives. You could be one of those people if you don’t give up. Tomorrow’s a new day. Don’t give up hope.
Stay positive and cherish little things. Know that you are worth alot because of your wonderful heart and emotional stuff. My parents tell me you have to make alot of money…but you don’t really have to. Money is worth nothing.
Culture will always be moving forward and so will people caught up in it. I guess i sort of look at it like a sort of freedom. A place to decide what to do next. I have read that loosing it is to have no purpose. I dont know what to make of that. But its hard to find a real thing to do every day. The most you can do is try to understand the gravity of each situation. I too have lost track of time. But it was only a construct anyway. Even us sick people can have an existential crisis.
I am soon 42 and still single and staying with my parent. I am jobless and basically still struggling with voices in my head. I have been on medication for 20 years.
You can be optimistic. Try to find out your strengths and stay positively.
Compared to others on here, i haven’t lost a lot. I have a very good supportive network and i got help before my symptoms caused too much chaos in my life. However, i had the goal of becoming a doctor one day. I think i live in a state of denial because part of me still wants to go for it. Part of me still thinks i can do it. Whether i can or not i’m not sure. Guess i’ll only know if i take the GAMSAT test they have for it over here.
That’s what helped me the most. My extended family all surrounded me, kept me from withdrawing from life, kept socializing with me even when I didn’t want to, kept me active, found jobs for me, kept pushing me to keep moving forward rather than stagnating.
I’ve discovered that when SZ takes something away from you, it’s like being a kid and having someone kick down your sand castle on you. Yeah, it sucked, but you still have plenty of sand and water. Now’s your chance to build something even cooler.
It’s not ez. I feel like on a state of perpetual existential angst. Having a hobby or interest can keep ur mind off it. Even something as unproductive as video games.
