How did trauma change you?

DX'd - Sz/SzA
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During psychosis and trauma, my mind was stretched to such heights and delusions…
After coming back to reality… I became a different person…

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Childhood trauma made me paranoid and is probably partly responsible for my sza. You seem to be talking about the trauma of a psychotic break, though. That’s a bit harder to explain. I am definitely not the same person I would have and could have been. My first break was 14 years ago, though, so I hardly remember anymore what it was like not to have a full-blown psychotic illness.

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I developed an anxiety disorder. I used to be really carefree and go with the flow. Now, I worry about everything and I don’t know how to stop it.

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that is such an accurate observation. I am so uptight, worrying about everything. Making everything into a problem.

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I remember my first real paranoia was when I was maybe 12 or 14. Then it was pretty tough at 21 years old.
I have had some childhood trauma too because of my parents and their lack of responsibility.

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Childhood trauma gave me intense anxiety. As I got older it took over more and more of my life. At one point I thought people were trying to get me to commit suicide. I bought a gun - a .22 auto handgun. I wasn’t going to walk into a crowd and open up, or anything like that, but if someone had walked up behind me on a dark night I might have turned around and shot him or her. My reasoning was that when they saw I wasn’t going to commit suicide they would send someone after me.

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I am sorry @crimby Glad nothing happened, it is a miracle. I am glad you are okay now. This mental illness is damaging

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My head grew knots. I dont want people looking at me…ever.

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Made me very timid/fearful, made my emotions chaotic, extreme and difficult to tolerate. It really changed me completely as a person, I did not have nearly as many problems.

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Childhood traumas caused a lot of psychological problems and I’m sure that they triggered my mental illness.

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My childhood consisted of emotional abuse and instability. I was bullied too. I think the trauma has put a lot of fear and anxiety and paranoia into me. If I had a ‘normal’ childhood I truly believe I wouldn’t of been unwell.

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Trauma has made me a much stronger person.
However, it has also given me anxiety, depression, anorexia/bulimia, and an undiagnosed psychotic illness.

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