Believed I could communicate with spirit guides which turned into believing I was psychic and had powers which turned into believing I could communicate with other people living and dead through communication through the spirit guides. I even heard my friends’ voices in my head and saw their spirit guides. Ugh long story and I’ve been wanting to write about it, but I’m no good at writing. In the end of course it sounds so stupid.
I don’t think that it sounds stupid. 
Aww thank you =)
DAs long as i can remember i’ve always experienced depersonalization and derealization. It started out with negative symptoms in high school but i was only diagnosed with depression. Then at the end of 2015 i began to get paranoid. I started thinking i was being hacked and followed.
Then it eacalated into thinking that my family was in trouble. I remember one night driving home i had to call my mom and make sure everything was okay at the house. Then i started getting obsessed with freemasons. I thought my entire family were masons (i honestly still have suspicions about that). I thought any combination of numbers meant something. I got obsessed with the meanings of numbers.
I started getting paranoid thinking that my parents were going to kill me because i found out. I thought my family was replaced with imposters and that they were going to kill me. This was when the psychosis was at its fullest. All of this happened over the span of about a month. I had to be hospitalized for a week.
There’s more to it than that i just wrote a basic summary.
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Watching conspiracy theory videos.
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It started when I was raped. That triggered my downfall.
No, not really; I have PTSD now. The first time was 6 years ago, though, and I’m a lot better now than I was then.
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Slowly over a period of a couple of years I started being paranoid, then became delusional and had panic attacks, and finally had a few hallucinations plus got depressed. I kept it all to myself and had no real idea there was anything wrong with me. I became withdrawn which must have tipped off my parents that there was something wrong.
inanimate objects developed human consciousness and began communicating with me
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It was a slow decent into madness over a period of 3 years. I was smoking a ton of weed. I was high from the time I woke up until I went to sleep for 4 years. I started having paranoia and delusions and it kept getting worse and worse. Then the hallucinations started. At first it was only visual hallucinations. I had no insurance so my mom couldn’t take me to the doctor. She called around and trying to get medical advice over the phone. One day.it was like a switch went off in my head and I started having auditory hallucinations.
I had cars doing this to me. My car was communicating through the accelerator pedals and I never left it I was in it 24/7. Also the other cars wanted to kill me.
Another time I thought the car was trying to poison me.
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When I was 14-15 years old. I hallucinated many things that still haunt me to today. I’m almost done writing my book about my first experience through it, It has been very therapeutic and I would recommend it to anyone.
send it to me if you wish
Wow this sounds exactly like me!
what do you sound like
I just got really paranoid and delusional. It started small and has gotten worse over the last couple years.
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Depression was at large…different numbing aspects of life…my physical breakdown and ailments…creating the powerhouse voices that invade my mental mind everyday now…supplementaly empowered by the people around…and those who arent.
Thank you all for being here…
It ran me over like a train in about 3 days. There was nothing gradual about it.
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