well i don’t know, i think the whole thing, being a defendent, while i was being prosecuted and defended would cause me much anxiety. i don’t know if i could go through with a jury trial, and would probably take a plea deal. although i guess, it depends on the severity of the charges and my guilt or innocence, but the whole thing seems like hell. just my every 6 month hearings about meds i hate and dread.
one time, when i was hospitalized, i had to go to court, to see if they would let me out or if i had to stay a whole month. during the hearing, they had an expert testify about my mental state, and also a group of school kids came in and witnessed the trial. it was so embarrasing, and then at the end of it, they asked me if i wanted to address the children about my future plans. i was so pissed they were there in the first place and told them i didn’t want to speak to the kids. i was in the hospital, because i was caught walking back on forth on a median in the middle of the road, after i got lost in the city and was hallucinating.