I have been feeling pretty good mood- and productivity-wise since I’m a bit hypomanic, but I have also been experiencing thoughts that are warning signs for me, like how my death will bring about world peace and environmental stability…but I won’t tell my clinicians about those until after my family goes home. They’re visiting from far away for my 50th birthday and there is no way I’m going into the hospital. I don’t care what they want to do after my family leaves, I’m not ruining their visit. It IS hard to hide the symptoms from my mom, tho, cuz she can usually read me like a book!
Not bad, it’s the weekend!
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Just waiting for zyprexa and bedtime meds to lull me to sleep. I didn’t get very much sleep last night. So tonight I hope I get some more
My eyelids are getting heavy lol
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It’s 12:30 am, and I just logged onto my computer. It’s looking like it could be a good day.
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I read somewhere at MIT a C in a course means you learned very little if I remember correctly lol.
Besides the school I went to (my dream school), I also was looking at USC and NYU and realized I was too poor and got depressed. I really liked NYU for their finance program, but was too broke. I didn’t grow up rich or anything and lived too far away.
I thought about Cornell but same issues and didn’t bother applying. I heard Babson is #1 for entrepreneurship and is always mentioned in the magazines.
#random info lol
I went to thailand last week came back Wednesday. It was perfect except I got a wound below my knee. Fell near a bathroom in Safari world Bangkok. It was embarrassing and painful. Stil paining. Trying to fix it.
How are you doing?
Im good. Idk if I’m sick or if it’s from the new vape juice I was smoking, but I have a cough and congestion in my chest. I’m hoping it’s the vape juice cause my mom has pneumonia or something that’s getting treated with antibiotics. Hopefully I didn’t catch the same thing. I didn’t sleep last night, but went to day treatment anyways. Took a 4 hour nap earlier. I need to sleep here pretty soon. Today has felt like two different days. I didn’t do a whole lot.
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Doing good. 15151515151515
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Im struggling really badly
I realize my goal of building a time machine is stupid and unrealistic and not fruitful or healthy and will never happen. I don’t even have those desires or urges anymore. It’s probably impossible and not worth it anyways.
I’ve drunk loads of alcohol this week and find it such a bring down. I got drunk and threw an egg at someone’s house. Gotta stop now.
I’m doing okay at the moment, though I’ve been struggling for a little while, not to mention I’m starting to lose hope that I will find a different, more suitable job.
I kinda feel what shutterbug said.
Idk if it’s a schizophrenia thing or just human thing but
I feel like I’m giving 100% effort lately at everything for sub par results/dissatisfied with everything really
Anxiety is kicking my ass.
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Well heres something that might make you giggle. I have been reading your user name as something like “Aiming transmission” . I just realized it was “Aiming at remission”.
Edit: My suggestion is to change the “at” and “remission” to Capital letters or use spaces. But then again, maybe everyone isnt as dumb as me and reads it right 
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I’m doing ok, but prefer to be working in a place that accepts me!
by spaces I meant the underlines. Cant have actual spaces in names.
Lol Aiming Transmission sounds pretty dang cool
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