My brain is forcing me to burn down the clinic. They have treated me badly and I need to get my revenge. They no longer choose to help me and leave me to rot.
They need to pay for what they have done to me.
I have been obsessing over this for a few days.
My head thinks that if I don’t have the stones to kill myself, I have to be a threat to them to prove that I need their help.
It’s a sad thing that they do not help you here unless you lose it.
I don’t want to lose it or do anything stupid, but I can feel my grip on my control system is beginning to slip and I am getting all these horrible thoughts of what I need to do.
I don’t want to do something stupid, but if things don’t get sorted out I am going to be provoked into a reaction that is not favourable for everyone involved.
Sounds like you are really angry. The best I would do is going for a long walk. When i react in anger its not a good outcome. Sleep over it, tomorrow its not that important anymore and you can do your regular stuff.
Wow, you would wreck your life. If you burned it down you might have a few moments of satisfaction and the revenge may feel good temporarily but the consequences of your action would change your life and last for years. Don’t do it. Plenty of people get screwed over every day, everywhere, but they don’t hurt anybody or burn down a clinic.