I’m doing awful at the moment. Yesterday and today I’m rock bottom and couldn’t pray ritual prayers and could barely function. I hardly cooked. I m like a vegetable. Hubby had had to step up and comfort me. I’m taking meds again but still feel awful. I’m supposed to go shopping today and I don’t know how I’m going to get dressed let alone drive. I keep on having visions of hubby dead at my hands. Alien says kill him and I want to cut myself instead
I’m going to arrange to see an emergency pdoc at the hospital outpatients this week because I can’t wait till 16 Nov when my pdoc returns and sees me. I just can’t…