There is a very specific food craving that every time i get it, (every few days) which i associate with my pedophile father…
I have not been able to diet without thinking of this…
I am also extremely sugar addicted I’ve put on about 15 lbs in about 18 weeks, I haven’t been able to diet and keep it off for 10 years.
I don’t know what to do any more, i think i need to go to OA, this addiction is AS STRONG
as any cigarette craving and probably IS the one that goes back furthest my cigarettes did not have a way of stopping being lit between thinking of one and having one i was on 60 a day,
now i’m on 3 - 5 puddings a day.
I need need need need need to get over the addiction, preventing more weight gain (after Christmas) is crucial…
I am afraid, because i don’t have incentive, (i’m married, i don’t even shave that often) I am suddenly sedentary for the same last 8 weeks, had so much work, no space for ANYTHING
my sister is having a biopsy at my family’s regular time of celebrating christmas (7pm on Christmas eve)
so maybe boxing day can be my first clean day, I am worried about getting hungry