Ive been doing quite well recently. Been getting my fitness in, eating healthy, studying, etc. I’ve been off meds for a little over a year now.
One thing, I’ve gotten accustomed to being less anxious in public. But I do get angry a lot. It’s a sudden rage lol, but I don’t verbally yell or do anything. There are just some moments where I am really calm, but if someone is really rude to me, and their reasoning is ridiculous, then its a problem. I get so heated in my mind and my blood in my veins starts to boil and I can just feel this insane testosterone boost where I feel like I need to do some type of running or lifting weight to combat the stress.
In a way its good cuz it gets me to exercise. But it sucks when i dont mean to come across as pissed but I do u know. Nothing is wrong, its all good. But there are things that tick me off. But i do yell at rude ass ppl sometimes, and they seem to avoid provoking me again by all means the next time i meet them. Dont worry i avoid abusing this power by all means as well.
Maybe look into attending anger management classes. I used to have anger issues during puberty. My therapist taught me that exercising or otherwise acting out physically when you’re angry is a bad idea, because it causes a rush of endorphins. Your brain then learns the pattern anger = exercise = endorphins and that makes you more likely to get angry in the future. Because your brain wants the hit of endorphins. So instead, you should practice some calming techniques that even out your heart rate and reactivate your logical reasoning.
Some things I do to calm down are:
Put an ice pack on the back of your head. This will cool down your brain and reduce activity in your limbic system, where emotions happen.
Do a task with simple, clear steps. I like baking. I follow the recipe, and it’s easy enough that I don’t get frustrated, but it requires enough concentration that I don’t have room to think about other things. Cleaning also helps.
Engage your five senses. This will remind you what is real and what isn’t. Listen to soothing music. Smell something pleasant, like an essential oil. Suck on a hard candy. Look at pictures of things you enjoy. Feel something with an interesting texture, like a piece of Velcro or a stress ball.
Try to levitate something with your mind. You obviously won’t succeed, but it gets you to focus all of your attention on a single point outside your body, instead of on your thoughts. I like to use this on airplanes or in public places, because it doesn’t require you to move at all. It looks like you’re just daydreaming to observers.
