Hello everyone. It’s been awhile since I’ve been on the forums. I’d just like to take the time to update on my life as of late. I’d also like to apologize to @gratitude and @Montezuma . I’m terribly sorry for my behavior from before. Sure enough, I was unmedicated and having some struggles finding housing which I still sort of am having trouble with. For all the people who remember me as ilovethaifood, I’d like to give thanks for our online support.
The truth is, I spent a year in jail due to an altercation and a misunderstanding. Long story short, I was deemed incompetent to stand trial due to being unmedicated. I had to go through a behavior competency program while incarcerated and the wait list was 5 months. That was on top of 6 months which I spent unmedicated before being deemed incompetent to stand trial. The program was designed to prove competency and so I passed the competency test within a month and was released today.
While incarcerated, I came to the realization that I truly do esteem and value many of you as friends and a positive influence in my life as well as support. There are things I haven’t shared with anyone else in person. In short, I missed you guys and gals. That goes for you too @ninjastar and everyone. We may have our differences but the amount of understanding and compassion found here is vital to people who suffer from schizophrenia or other mental illness(es). I honestly spent some time thinking about the positive influences from friends like Monte and Oola. I don’t know what to say, I felt like I was a ■■■■ up. (Pardon the language.) But thinking about ways to apologize and catch up with some of you helped me through a few dreadful days. Life is strange, I’ve taken it as a learning experience and still have some upcoming court dates. Sorry for the way I was acting before, without a doubt I was also being cooped up due to the COVID-19 restrictions and epidemic during the early days before my incarceration.
I felt compelled to share with those of you who remember me even if these are somewhat personal matters, it doesn’t really excuse my rude behavior, but I’d like you all to know that I do feel that you are good friends. @Montezuma I prayed (apologies for the religious comment, I won’t talk about unusual beliefs. that you’re life as well as others would be faring better than mine. I hope my fellow posters can find it in their hearts to forgive me. @Chew or @Gratitude, if you’re still around, I’m terribly sorry man. You’re a good person and we all have our own shortcomings, I guess mine reared it’s ugly head.
All in all, best wishes to everyone as well as any new users who suffer from mental illness(es), as Monte used to say,
“You’re friend in the struggle,”
(the artist formerly known as ilovethaifood ) schizophrenisaurus.