It’s been a while since I’ve been on here. Been going to other pastures. But I thought I’d drop in… Hope you guys well.
I’m still doing well but lately I’ve been sensing Alien again. I think it’s my lower amisulpride dose. I was on 400mg which helped a lot.
But my pdoc is trying to wean me off of it due to my prolactin problem. She wants to try me on Seroquel preferably. So I’ve taken 300mg amisulpride for two weeks, then 200mg for nearly two weeks. I see her again on Tuesday when she will do another blood test to see if the lower dose lowered my prolactin or not.
I’m scared, because I have sensed Alien again this last week. When I was well, I started to doubt if he existed anymore, but now I know he does.
I sense this dark aggressive energy again. Not from me though but from him. Not voices at moment, but this regular inserted thoughts of violence and I’m scared Alien will use me to kill. I started thinking if I should end my life before Alien makes me end others. But I’m not suicidal, don’t worry. It’s just a thought.
I’m so scared. I don’t want to relapse again!