I can’t seem to shake my delusions. And it seems like every bad and good thing that happens in my life I attribute to them. I’m able to tell myself that they don’t go along with reality, but in the back of my head these thoughts are screaming like madmen.
When something bad happens I think that some outside force planned that event to sabotage my life to make it worse. And when something good happens, I believe that the same outside force is trying to pull a fast one on me to make me believe that they’re not there so I become extra defensive for something bad to happen in the near future. I can’t shut down that part in my head that’s constantly pulling me away from reality. While other delusions are present, I feel I need help with this one the most because it constantly pulls me away from reality.