I went travelling recently to Toronto. I’ll be honest I really enjoyed it. I never really like travelling because I don’t feel safe anywhere. I always feel I will be mugged or shot. I always fear that a bomb will land on me or I’ll get hit by a car. I always fear something will happen and I won’t wake up. I guess when I was in Toronto I still had lots of fear but I felt proud for exploring the city. I saw lots of things that I’ve never seen before, I also liked that for once I was not known by anyone. Where I’m from it’s so small that everyone knows each other. I liked being incognito and how people just minded their own business. It even made me want to move there I just feel if I do will I feel better starting over. Honestly I think about starting over all of the time, hell some times I want to move to a remote country no one knows about just so I could live somewhere quiet and away from the troubles of this world. I get so worried about news and everything that I just want to run away. I love Canada I just don’t like our position in the world though. I guess seeing the world though made me a little less scared of it, and now that I’m home all of my worries are coming back.
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I am glad you enjoyed your trip. That is wonderful 
As far as feeling anxious again, I am sorry to hear it. I am anxious frequently too. Much like you, my anxiety is directly related to paranoia that something awful is going to happen to me. The only things that really help me are meds. I did try a guided meditation the other day and it seemed to help. I think if I do that consistently it will help. Maybe you could try it too.
I hope you feel better.
Funny, I always wanted to travel anytime,anyplace, anywhere, because I knew that the chances of getting killed inside the safety of my own home was slim to none.