Im struggling hard guys. The material is tough enough, but I can barely leave my apartment to attend lectures. I’m in a numerical methods for nuclear engineering class with 2 other people and every time the professor directly asks me a question I can never answer it correctly.
They assume you are already a master programmer and that you know reactor physics equations and concepts, so they focus on discrete math and ways of iterating those equations. I dont even know where to begin, Ive never coded in Python, I only know C/C++ and Java. Ive been told its easy but thats just one of the many examples of how screwed I am.
I cant fail this though, this is the opportunity of a lifetime. I also got kicked out of the student portal due to an IT glitch, so Im stuck not even being able to study for this shite. It just feels like everything is working against me.
Sorry for the long post, I just needed to vent. I barely left the apartment this weekend and when I did I was super paranoid. The neighbors are making fun of me and constantly judging me and one of my friends back home died of a heroin overdose (I think) and I cant go back for the funeral. Why is life doing this to me???