Having a hard time with voice

DX'd - Sz/SzA
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The voice keeps saying to quit college. The voice keeps saying I’m going to hell and the only way out is to quit. I really started to lose it last night. The voice keeps saying that noone cares about me. The voice keeps calling me names and saying I’m scum.

This is only some of what it says. It says a whole lot of horrible things.

The voice says I’m “lord of the scumbags.” The voice says that I’ll be buried alive and that is a sacrifice for all the scum who Jesus didn’t forgive (like Adolf Hitler or something).

I really had a hard time last night. The voice keeps saying he’s going to do something terrible to me if I don’t quit.

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Sorry you’re going through that. I wonder why most people’s voices are so negative. Why can’t schizophrenia be positive?

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Don’t listen to the voice! Definitely don’t let them dictate your life. I know it’s hard, but you have to resist. I forget, are you currently on medication? If so, it may be time for an upped dose or changed med.

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I’m on Clozapine and Haloperidol. These are the two drugs I like the best. I tried Vraylar recently, but it just made me anxious.

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You should mention to your pdoc that you’re still having a lot of trouble with the voice. Hopefully they can help you out with that.

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Fight the voice as much as you can. Remember you make the choices in your life not it.

I also hear voices and am in a constant battle with them. The voice wants me to fail while I want to succeed.

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I’m worried that the voice will somehow erase my files on Friday. I’m really afraid of it.

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I had a new York male voice making fun of me back in November. I think if. They don’t go away or ease up go to er or crisis center.ive found that not responding to them if you can.damn I hate voices. Get well.

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Is your voice coming from someone you know?

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No, the voice I hear says that it’s from the Devil.

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During game my first couple of episodes I experienced the samething. I heard a voice from god, the devil and Jesus and they were all friends. Later started hearing friends and came to the belief I am somewhat telepathically linked with them.

I also now believe the voice of god, the devil, and Jesus was just one of my friends messing/hazing me.

I now hear just one voice from a friend I use to hang it with over 10 years ago. And he only sends me bad thoughts that make me feel miserable.

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All bark and no bite. Just noise. A voice is just a voice, nothing more. Those are things I would tell myself that helped somewhat.

There was one speaker on sz who talked about trying to understand the voices from a symbolic perspective. For you it makes sense because college is extremely stressful. I know college was pretty hellish for me on a regular basis. Thus quitting college would be the only way for you to escape that hell. However you can make yourself feel better by reminding yourself it is just a temporary hell, not an eternal one, and you are helping set up a positive future for yourself.

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I made more bets with the voices today. Now I really believe they will erase all my class files so I’ll get a bad grade. I’m really upset about it. I feel like there’s nothing I can do about it because I just don’t want to quit. But if I don’t quit I’ll go to hell.

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You really need to get on meds man. And control these voices. I have mine controlled through the day, but at night when I sleep I don’t.

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