What about not going when you really really needed it.
I understand why some people don’t wanna go when they need it. There’s a pride factor.
My first 6 hospitalizations were not voluntary but the last two were. I maybe could have avoided those but they helped a lot anyways.
Every time I should have gone to the hospital but I didn’t, I still eventually had to go. I never “recovered” on my own from a bad episode. Always got forcibly hospitalized later on.
First time I def needed to go I was completely in another world and seriously vulnerable. Second time I could have just been treated by the crisis team but they thought otherwise since they found me half naked on the floor in a park. Third time was good they just got the crisis team to visit me.
Edit actually I think I needed hospital second time but just for a week not three
I have never been in hospital apart from a mandatory med change. I used to hear voices non stop and believe in all sorts of things but I think people just did not really know how bad I was.