I feel like a fool nowadays. I thought this guy was planning to kill me so I exploded on him and made myself look stupid and nuts.
Has anyone been through this? I feel terrible.
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When I was in the psyche ward and they chained me to a table and a nurse came in and I said a bunch of graphic sexual stuff to her. What’s even worse is they told my parents what I said.
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I thought the police were set up in a neighbor’s apartment and i knocked on their door meaning to give myself up to them and my neighbor answered…it was quite awkward. I told the police that i killed some of my neighbors with telepathy and the police contacted all those neighbors and basically told them i was crazy. Rather embarrassing for future contact…
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If causing a crowd of hundreds of people to form at a large university while in a psychotic state being taken by police is embarassing
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Yes I feel so guilty about my episode to this day.
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Many many times. One of the times i cringe most from when i was in the ward:
All the other patients were in a morning group with the circle of chairs and all that. But during the whole group session i was dancing and shadow boxing on top of a pingpong table while playing imagine dragons songs from my phone in full view of the group. 
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Yep
Enough Christmas 
Millions of times. When I use to go to the gym I thought people were doing hand signals to let me know they were watching me. I thought military personnel was there to keep me there and watch me. I thought some of the people there were Nazis who transferred to my gym to do psychological torture on me by staring at me. I thought the TV was giving me secret messages and no one was able to pick up on this, like secret missions. I had to leave the gym because I was so wigged out I almost got into a few fights there. I knew I had to cancel my gym membership. I went home and started talking to my tv. I would write messages on a piece of paper and show them to the TV, then the TV would give me a message with a secret meaning. I did this like 8 hours straight one day. Good times
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I said and did some embarrassing things.
I started crying to my landlord because they wanted to do a bug bomb in my room and i thought that my soul was in one of.the bugs and it would kill me
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Oh yes yes.
I have blurted out accusations and comments. Stemmed from paranoia. The looks I’ve gotten! This was very recently.
I’ve gotten into other arguments with people because of paranoia because I thought they were trying to make me go crazy again and many other reasons like kill me or other reasons. Or send negativity to me. Just to ruin my life.
There’s more but I don’t like to think about it ugh.
I confronted people like an insane person. It was really embarrassing and humiliating when I came to my senses.
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Lots of times I made a mistake
I tried to kill myself at my boyfriend’s friend’s house. I was rushed to emergency room on an ambulance.
it’s been 20 years. but every time I see this friend I want to disappear as I am so embarrassed of this still. I made a total fool of myself. but I was very young and drunk. I’m still with the boyfriend though
I was not totally psychotic at the time but very self destructive and depressed and suicidal. not the best time of my life.
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worse
I was ashamed of myself in a mental hospital
I was nearly shot and killed on Parliament Hill in Canada during one escape from the Psychiatric Ward.
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Lots of things… I was basically sharing my thoughts on my social media channel for all to see (my sz thoughts). I texted a guy I liked all kind of inappropriate stuff. I went to a foreign country mid-crisis almost withouth money and had a real struggle there. Now a lot of people know I’m crazy, but I don’t really care, life goes on. I used to be really shy and I think this has helped me to not care much about people’s opinion.
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Dude, embarrassment is the name of the game when your delusions are flaring up. I’m so glad I’ve been mostly asymptomatic for 5 years. For my first several with the disorder I was embarrassed a lot.
Yes, but sometimes I’m right.
Yup. I thought crows were following me around threatening to kill me so I flaked out on a bunch of commitments because I didn’t wanna go outside. Embarrassing.