For the past week or so I’ve noticed I’ve been having delusions when I wake up. I will wake up at around 8-10 am For instance this morning I had the same delusion I’ve been having for a week but this one was the worst one yet. I woke up at around 9 am, I just remember laying in bed and thinking I had super powers with my mind, like telekinesis. I saw theories in my head how I could move things with my mind and even do mind control to creatures. My cat was laying with me and he moved and I believed that I moved him with my mind. I was astounded with myself and I believed everything that was going on in my head. I saw images of me sitting in a laboratory being experimented on and using this “power”. I then heard knocking at the door and it was my brother wanting in the house, he was apparently outside for 10 minutes. I then found out that it was 3 pm and I was supposed to see my life coach at 3 so I had to cancel and said I slept all day.
I realize now that this was a hallucination/delusion but this morning it felt so real. It felt more real then it ever did this morning, like other mornings I didn’t focus so much on it, but this morning I literally spent 6 hours in a trance it didn’t even feel like 6 hours. I’ve had hallucinations before but never really big delusions, not like this. I admit I haven’t taken any medication for almost 3 weeks now, and to be honest that’s because I feel my meds are poison which must be another delusion I’m not sure. I see my doctor Thursday finally after almost 3 months of trying to see him and him delaying our appointments. I know this time for a fact I want to get different medication. I’m bringing my life coach with me and hopefully he can help me tell the doctor because I’ve never been good at talking to the doctor. I plan on telling my life coach about my delusion tomorrow.
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I’ve had hallucinations before but never really big delusions, not like this. I admit I haven’t taken any medication for almost 3 weeks now
Please take your meds. This will stop the delusions. Things are just going to get worse if you don’t. Listen to your doctor when it comes to meds, not some life coach.
My life coach tells me to take them. I am the one who decides not to and I know I should I just feel so disgusting because of them.
Plus my life coach has done a lot more for me then my doctor. My doctor never listened to me the 2 years I’ve seen him and once I said depressed or voice he would give me more and more pills. Mental illness isn’t dealt with well here and the doctor I had was known as one of the worse but I had no choice in my doctor cause we are that limited. I hated that doctor and still do because he didn’t do anything but test a bunch of pills on me. My life coach wants me to take my meds and he keeps telling me I should. He’s pretty much the only person I have to talk to now. I’ve known him for 5 years now and he’s one of the only people I trust. To me he is more then a life coach cause he’s helped me through a lot of dark times. He doesn’t have the education doctors have on meds but at least he gives a damn to try and find an actual solution and listens.
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The life coach charges money, while I am ready to help you for free @dannyboy6657
I have had vivid images in my mind, that I believed were put there by the people controlling my brain, of my alter ego levitating, mind reading, speaking to spirits and, lately, stopping bullets. In the past I have had thoughts/images of her being the best martial artist in history, defeating multiple opponents at once, meditating in bizarre positions in extreme weather for multiple hours, curing scars and cuts on her body, changing her eye color with thought and more.
It seems so real! But, obviously, no human can do that. I battle with that delusion all the time. Thoughts of a woman using my body and doing the impossible in the ‘real’ world while I am stuck here in the ‘fake’ world. Fortunately, I am able to function. I don’t end up in trances or anything but it is very distracting. I hope you are able to get over this phase so it isn’t disabling for you.