This is why a best friend is always a good thing. i hated hanging out in groups. so much macho-outdoing in it…
Yes, this illness is humbling. It has also made me a more compassionate person.
I used to be an atheist and a libertarian and my idol was Gordon Gekko from the movie Wall Street. I believed in survival of the fittest. I had no sympathy for disabled people, the homeless, or those on welfare. All I cared about was being successful and being better than anyone else. I thought that tipping was irrational and wanted to write a paper/thesis on it. I thought the free market solved everything and was fair and moral. When I first was told by my parents to get on SSI, I told them no. But since I couldn’t work and my parent’s were not willing to help me, I went on it. I was practically forced to. For years, I hated it because it made me a hypocrite and I didn’t believe in welfare. I held on to my libertarian beliefs for about a year or two after my illness. Then I realized through my own suffering that there is true suffering. I never realized people could be disabled and suffer to the extent I did. It was then that I realized that having welfare for those that truly needed it is a compassionate thing and I thanked society for it.
I used to hate Christians and thought they were stupid (I’m a Christian now). My family is really religious and I thought they were crazy and stupid. I was the only atheist in my family and I felt like the red-headed step child. I shut them out and I was aggressive. Now I live in peace with my family and I have accepted Jesus Christ into my life.
I’m also no longer a Libertarian, although I am still biased towards it. I really like Ron Paul and his son. But I know what Libertarianism is and I know I wouldn’t make it in such a society so I can’t possibly agree with it 100%. So I consider my self a-political, despite voting for Obama twice, which I now regret. Nowadays, I’m leaning more Republican, although I sympathize with Democrats.
I’m kind of glad to have developed schizophrenia. Although I suffer immensely, I’m kinder, less arrogant, and easier to get along with. If I stayed in school, I probably would have ended up in finance and would have the same limited empathy. Who knows, maybe I would have been worse off. All I cared about was materialism and competition.
Now, I’m 25 years old, I live with my parents, I’m on SSI, I’m unemployed, I’m poor, I never had a girlfriend, I’m fat, I feel stupid, and I have poor social skills. So of course I’m humbled. You can’t be arrogant in my situation. Now I know I would be dead if it was survival of the fittest.
I have poor social skills too. The break I had completely erased my former personality.
I have to force myself (with help from my therapist) to go out and do things, and talk with people. I figure who cares if its awkward for a while… its the only way ill ever improve my social skills.
For example to become Catholic, which I’m thinking about, you have to go through some classes that involve lots of interaction. I know it will be a learning experience.
I’ve had girlfriends, though they were all kind of… well they just weren’t serious. I also live with my parents
Yeah man. They’ve bagged and tagged all the girls that come around there place anyways. Trying to get with them is complicated because they’ve got loyalties and expectations and all that ■■■■.
I got tired of the group setting a while ago. They’re all drunk or stoned or worse and going on about what their mutual friends have been doing. I’m glad to be out of that routine.
The people who really do care show it by actually texting me sometimes.
After two years of internet use I have tendency to get carried away and talk to much. Something I fear might drive people away.
It’s hard for me to have a civil mundane conversation, I have to work on that.
Same, so much residual aggression from my break that i can barely think about having a calm and civil conversation, especially if it’s mundane.
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Women like men who are confident! Remember that. Don’t let them put you in the mind set of a beta male.
It is a myth that women pity ■■■■ my friend. Don’t try that angle. there aint no pity ■■■■ porn. Why is that? Because NO ONE finds it sexy. A lot of women ignore the guys with an education and a good job and go after the dishwasher with the spider web tattoo. Keep that in mind.
I wouldn’t want to ■■■■ them hos anyways.
The best way to find out if you are compatible is if you both hate and detest each other.
If a woman gives you a lot of attitude it might mean she wants to subconsciously ■■■■ you and vice versa.
Man your crazy dude. The women I’ve been with all fell in love with me. Only one ever fell out of it.
Some girls might be like that, but most of them aren’t. Maybe out in cali. We have a bunch of midwest christian girls setting the standards here.
I’ve never been on a date too. I’ve had girls ask me out but none of them were attractive. I almost had sex one time with a hot girl but I was so drunk I almost puked on her. I ended up going somewhere else at the party, alone. Maybe I’m slightly autistic (or have low self-esteem or high standards) or something? Anyone like Asian women?
So you saying you want a Christian woman? I find myself most attracted to atheist women, at least online.
I think Christian women are hotter. Maybe it’s a fetish or something.
I am also attracted to women who are witches. It’s because I hate them! Get it.
Nah those aren’t really my type. Just saying that is the bulk of the girls here and they set the standards.
I mean as long as they aren’t going to drag me to church I really don’t give a damn.
This thread has been hijacked
Are you attracted to older or younger women?
I’d say 21 to 29 I guess. Preferable someone who is 25 26 27. There is a lot of maturity that starts dawning on people after 25.