I dont wanna go into details and trigger anyone or anything. But i now clearly have very classic PTSD from my last relationship and they are pinning basically everything on my sza/mental illnesses, but especially sza. It just sucks having such empathy for someone who would probably dance on your grave.
That person sounds toxic and you don’t need people like that in your life. Good riddance to them.
Yeah the further away i grt from them the more i realize that. I got a protective order against them and theyre trying to get me to talk to them while in the same breath trash talking me
Stay far away from them. We sometimes have to wipe our hands clean from the muck.
Im just healing. Trying to move on but having a hard time because my brain likes to literally transport me back in time or i obsess over things they accused me of, some of rightfully so. But just because we had communication issues does that mean i deserved screaming fits and low level violence?
I obsess over so much stuff my brain literally never shuts down. I hear you and feel your frustration.
Im sorry to hear you can relate. It makes it even harder if you have cognitive issues and disorganization. Sometimes i literally dont know right from left.
You deserve nothing but good, kind people in your life. No one has the right to hurt you.
I have moments of the day where my mind is at optimum level and that’s right now. Later on my brain can become silly putty.
Have it from childhood abuse and poverty as a kid and young adult. Mostly dealt with, but not completely. It pops up on me from time to time. I talk to my therapist about it.