Has an AP ever caused you to have suicidal thoughts?

If so, which one? What did you end up switching to?

I just came off of Latuda because of that. The only other thing that caused instant severe depression with intrusive suicidal thoughts like that before was Depakote. It started out with mild dysphoria which I have had from APs then boom! Curious about other people’s experiences.

No the opposite, they helped.

4 Likes

That is the intent of course. I was just unlucky with the roll of the dice this time.

1 Like

Do you have suicidal thoughts when off meds? If yes then maybe its the sz or depression and not the AP.

Seroquel made me suicidal. I switched to Abilify and that worked out ok.

4 Likes

Abilify is also used for depression of bipolar and as addon for major depression.

2 Likes

Personally I get suicidal whenever I am off meds for a long time.

2 Likes

I have too but when it is medication induced it seems to be much more intense and steady. It is weird because Latuda is used for treating bipolar depression. I guess just one little neurotransmitter bent the wrong way and the bottom drops out.

2 Likes

ya im allergic to geodone made me severely suicidal to the point it caused my first attempt

also Seroquel made me very si

1 Like

Sometimes meds can have paradoxical effect. APs and ADs in small cases are known to increase suicidal thoughts/behaviors.

Med you took was not right for you. That’s about it.

1 Like

I have had ups and downs in terms of suicidal thoughts

Most of it started when I got diagnosed, and has gotten progressively worse over time

1 Like

When I was first medicated on 15mg aripoprazole, I was utterly shocked. By how it affected me. And that things didn’t improve over time on 15mg.

One day I started researching the least painful suicide methods. On the Internet.

As backup plan if it came to a point where I had had enough.

And then soon after I realised that if I kill myself, I might still be in a bad place : hell, because I was still struggling with the memories of my psychosis regarding hell.

So, I felt utterly trapped in this universe.

I did not see any escape route except perseverance and hope for change.

2 Likes

I was on Latuda for one month. When I went to the pharmacy to refill the prescription I went into the bathroom with the pepsi I had just bought and took the entire month’s supply, all 30 Latuda in an attempt to kill myself.

1 Like

Ouch. I’m sorry to hear about that and glad that you survived that experience.

I’m sorry to hear that. It was after being on my dose increase from 40 to 60mg of Latuda I knew something wasn’t right. I messaged my pdoc and told him I am coming off and just said “I am having really bad thoughts that I will not elaborate on if there is a written record of them. I refuse hospitalization and will ride this out at home.” He called later that night and checked to see that I was safe and asked if I had a plan. I lied and told him I didn’t. In reality I had plans to wrap up my loose ends the next day. I confirmed that the little bit of life insurance I have had for years had an expired suicide clause and was going to write everything down about the mortgage and instructions for bills that needed to be paid for my wife so that she would be OK. I was going to sit down with my wife that night and tell her everything that this was too much and that I didn’t think I was going to survive this experience. Instead, she interrupted me and said “you know when you get better you are going to go do _____”. I forget what “____” was but it sparked a change in thinking. At first, I said that it was too optimistic but came back with something more short-term and enjoyable. We went back and forth for about 3 hours just going back and forth about little things we were going to do and I was going to do when I got better. Things that gave me hope for survival. I started to think more optimistically. THe next morning I felt a little better and my sister and my friend also talked a little bit with me. I was actually able to get a little work done. I am still in one hell of a funk but I see my pdoc on Thursday and I think I am actually going to survive. this.

1 Like

Not APs. Depression made me have suicidal thoughts

This is true. I have heard of more than 1 person actually getting manic after starting Zyprexa. I couldn’t imagine Zyprexa ever triggering mania but it has happened before.

1 Like

Yay. I hope you survive this too. What a beautiful wife you have, too

1 Like

Thank you. I’m very lucky in that regard.

1 Like

Quetiapine brought me into that place. I think it was the worst med I took.

1 Like