Iāve had troubles with articulating stuff especially when Iām speaking. I get a lot of mental blocks in the moment where I have to pause and try and think of how I want to describe it. Itās especially frustrating when the person listening says they understand what Iām saying, because more often than not they donāt. Not that I blame them, theyāre just trying to keep the convo going along.
Thereās just this intangible sensation that makes it tough to frame the ideas in my head to spoken words. It struck me in early adulthood, and made me think I was losing my brain.
Itās so frustrating. Thank you for your response. Iām trying so hard not to fall apart because I am strong. But how many things do I have to accept and let goā¦ya know? No hallucinations or voices so ok that way. But the reality is I am allowing this to embarrass and humiliate me. My dogs donāt care at least lolā¦see ya made me laugh at myself. Progressā¦ty. It is what it is but I think Iāll chillax for the day and accomplish just not beating myself up anymore. That truly is a big task.
Yeah, relaxation doesnāt hurt with the mental blockage. In early adulthood I struggled a lot with that, as I was frustrated with the slow of mental growth, if that makes sense. Or maybe it was just my mind getting less fluent. Frustration and dwelling on the mental stuff tends to snowball things. Until I found the right med for my condition, I had difficulty with mood and everything else, let alone maintaining a healthy outlook toward the world.
Just keep on keeping on, youāre doing well just looking into these things. Be nice to yourself, above all. Imagination can be a bad thing, especially when it comes to how I think others might be judging me or saying when Iām not there to defend myself.