Tonight I came to the conclusion that I could never have had the girl that got away because she saw me as the failure who never got his degree. (We were in the same class at university).
She was that type of girl.
For some reason I no longer care about either having failed my degree or ending up with her.
At a conscious level I thought I had gotten over a romantic deception from my tender youth. But in therapy it came out again. Turns out I had been repressing trauma. After some crying I felt worse but later I felt better. Don’t underestimate the sh!t that failed expectations with a woman can do to your soul! Especially if you’re the sensitive type like me.
That’s just life bro, it’s like a saying I heard the other day “we only get half of what we want” just be thankful for the peace of mind we have without a female in our life right now lol