Well I went to the doctor appointment. And she said she hadn’t heard back yet from the pdocs. Then she signed me up for case management and I should be hearing back from them next week. So I can join group as soon as I get approved. Today we talked about my hallucinations. We discussed the scariest one of all that I’ve never told anyone. The fedora man. I saw someone mentioned in another post something similar so I felt better about talking to her about it.
She asked me to draw him then make less scary. So I colored him pink and she laughed when I said he wants to be a pimp.
She said it was a mixture of thought replacement therapy and play therapy. She had me tear up a picture of a gremlin. She gave me some tools to continue homework like markers, balloons and bubble wrap. The bubble wrap helped with the anxiety from the gremlins.
She did say something interesting though. That learning to cope with hallucinations and mental illness isn’t a sprint but a marathon and she knows I can make it.
Glad you were able to have a good theraputic session with your doctor. it sounds like you have a good sense of humor, even though you’re dealing with a subject that is very frightening. Hope you will continue to feel better and get help @cbbrown, it seems like you’ve been through an awful lot lately.
thats a really good idea i wish i had therapy like that i’ve always wanted to explore my thoughts but most of the time i am trying to ignore them and look beyond them, i’d like to make sense of them, the medication might hold me back a little in that way though,
if i was to draw paranoia i wonder what it would look like or my delusions if i had those symptoms, tbh idk if that would help with those things its really got me thinking though,
I woke up to the sound of gremlins scratching the walls so I took the bubble wrap and visualized I was popping their freaking little heads. That didn’t make them go away but it helped.
i wish i had therapy like that 