Hope it works for you. Stay safe
You have a child.
You OWE it to him to be a good parent.
How can you say you have no loved ones when you have a child?
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Hi @Melomaniac, I suggest that you clear talk to your pdoc about suicidal matter. Donāt reinforced about the decision of off med. Because if you fail than nobody helps you!!!
@Melomaniac Think of your baby and Wife.
Donāt do it.
Stay on your meds!
I switched to new meds and then decided to go off meds completely.
It ended in disaster.
I was Hospitalized twice and to this very day I have not been feeling myself!
Donāt do it.
Yes true. I have tried olanzapine, risperidone, abilify. All of them are sort of helping me calm down to the very minimal. To the point that i cannot even talk. I believe in myself than Docs and Meds.
Why donāt you go off meds through your pdoc.
My wife is not so empathetic. I can understand for the fact that what i have done to her is still not justified from her view point. It may end up in a divorce sometime. But i will help my son and wife in whatever situation they are in for life with all my best effort. Staying on meds and supporting is hell is why i took this decision. No one cares for me in the toughest situation except meds which is a thing. I have created enough pain for others so relationships are a disaster for me. Whateever i used to say or do does not work. Hence no meds.
He does not know me good enough and i dont know him good enough. And i dont have good enough adviser in my place for me for real.
Your words are applied for every patients and doctor. But any way only we try to suggest you.
Ok. I will keep posted on the progress.
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Thanks everyone for stayin with me on this. I want to sound normal and do normal. I could not find any other option but this after thinking million times. My life is a wreck and to repair it i want to do something that makes sense to me. To my conscious i feel so awkward and uncomfortable taking meds and going to pdoc. Only during episodes it made sense and but at that time i refused to go to pdoc. Now i refuse for a reason that i thought about deeply.
I can only talk from experience but the decision is yours. I just had to start my med again cos yes I looked happy but it wasnāt fun it was distressing I am feeling a little dull on meds but can function nowā¦
yes i know what you mean. you say It might be a mania. But i dont think so. I am assessing each and every thought and feel like thoughts are stable. And compared to the depression and mania its much better in functioning. But its too early as i gradually reduced in last 5 days. Lets hope for the best 
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I didnāt think I was manic. I just felt I was distressed. Now I am thinking it may be mixed.
I hope the best for you. Just keep your pdocs number with you and ask your wife to contact them if she feels youāre not well.
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Yes she does that. But i dont want that to happen thats my point. Will take all strides not to fall for it. Though its something not in our control. Practice and efforts in good things can pay off i believe.
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Different thoughts I guess. Iām thinking of getting my Mum to be power of attorney. So if I refuse treatment and am not well Mum or docs can force it. Cos I know Iām not always thinking straight.
I am on my own here. To take meds i decided and to go off as well. Thinking straight is something i am working on as well. All of the time there has been some sort of disturbance. But eventually if the mind is under control and in positive state of mind thoughts can flow normally. Which is what i experience now. And hope it stays forever.
Wellā¦ All I can say is I wish you well.
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many times I have felt tempted to quit my meds & be natural but whenever i do it I am worseā¦ and then you need even more meds to get back to normal. donāt do it. you will regret itā¦
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