I have to go inpatient again because I am having the worst symptoms of my life. Been in the hospital 5 times. Been having suicidal/homicidal thoughts. I told my psychologist a month ago and wrote both in big letters in my notes. He said nothing after reading that and asked If I wanted to get a job. I can’t even leave my house for support groups, and he read that and said do you want to work? Seroquel has no effect on me so going to switch meds in safety. I have never been this low. Just hoping they admit me tomorrow. My dad is going to call tomorrow morning. They are closed on weekends and my psychiatrist is on vacation. I also don’t feel safe switching meds at home or something with the ■■■■ I’ve been dealing with. They also have daily AA/Na meetings in the unit, and I have a major drinking problem to deal with all this. I have never had the amount of anger I have right now in my life due to delusions.
my dad called him and asked why he didn’t address, and he said I had a (block). He just tries to be my buddy and literally promotes avoidance. I have schizoaffective. Legit been telling me oh just don’t think about it and told me to ignore my voices and paranoia. I looked it up and he should be doing exposure therapy and talking to me about this ■■■■. It’s literally the definition of avoidance coping, and he is promoting that.
My therapist before disability warned me that the state-run clinics will do this because they are overloaded and not educated in specific ailments.
I think you need to do it to look after yourself. You have to prioritise your health first and it’s important to ask for help. The whole health system is under pressure at the moment in most places.
Thank you rouge you have been supportive in my posts. They keep you for about 2 weeks where I am going. People will travel literally 4 hours to go here and it’s 10 min drive from my house, guess I’m lucky. I have been sober and Sain for almost a year after attending it. Honestly, they even have the best food you could ever imagine for a hospital, and you do your own laundry when ypu want. Also, groups like every 45 mins very little down time. Art therapy and meditation even it’s amazing tbh what they do there.
They do the AA meeting every night with serenity prayer too it’s honestly amazing what they do there.
Hopefully sort out some meds to help with those symptoms and get you stable. I think it’s good you recognise your struggling. Sometimes you have to be proactive with your treatment and wish you well with it. Sounds like the place you need to be.
Thanks man…keep up the good work on this forum you are helping a lot of people. I hope to be able to help on here as well when I am stable.
It can be overcome, you need your supports now more than ever. Use them
I have never found psychologists to be of much use to put it mildly and in pc terms
Doesn’t sound like this one can appreciate your struggles to bring up a job in the midst of massive problems
Try and keep calm
Let us know how you’re doing - I hope you can get a bed if that’s what you think will help most in short term
Drug/alcohol use is not helpful at all. Maybe these meetings will help you more than you can imagine.
Go for it
Thank you!! Ya my current med does nothing. I told them for months but idk. I will get on something that works. The place where I am going actually knows what they are doing. The people I was seeing only treat disability patients due to insurance my old doctor warned me about their issues. I can’t switch meds at home I’m terrified as I tried switching home and I was fearing hurting others. I hear voices yelling at me from when I wake up to when I sleep unless constant noise like have tv or music on 24/7. I see ■■■■ when I close my eyes. No rest even if I sleep cause of vivid nightmares I talk in my sleep. I know this hospital is good though. i am determined to get sober too been too long on this road.
Time to play my last games of league of legends tonight before I’m inpatient lol!!!
I legit have only felt anger defending my friends when in fights and ■■■■. I just can’t handle the emotional pain of threating people I think can hear my thoughts when I mean no harm. I feel like people are persecuting me for something but have no idea what. Which I’m sure a lot of people can relate too. I at least have insight, but it doesn’t change the fact that I’m in pain and angry all the time when i go psychotic. It’s like I change into a different personality, but I do not have DID
I’ve been taking 400 x 2 Seroquel for over a decade, and 80 x 2 Geodon for the same amount of time. I didn’t think the Seroquel was having any effect on me until I didn’t get it for five days. It could be what you’re experiencing is due to coming off Seroquel.
Also, I cannot communicate on here for 2 weeks + they don’t allow anything that has a camera where I’m going. When I get home, I hope to keep active on here. Peace and Love to all of you!
I guess you are experiencing a lot of anxiety right now. Try to have patience, it gets better.
Ya I switched from 30mg Zyprexa a day to 700mg Seroquel (which used to work for me). Since switching no sleep and psychosis could be a side effect from discontinuing Zyprexa. I refuse to go back on that though gained 100lbs and lost it all fortunately. Worked out 2 hours a day to get back to my original weight.
You need a different therapist. That’s terrible. I’m sorry you’re struggling so much and I hope they have a bed for you so you can get the help you need
Yes lots of anxiety they upped my Klonopin but think I’m past it and it is just keeping me from withdrawal. I have been on xanax or klonpin since 16 years old. I’m 2 months from 30 now. I am dependent on it now unfortunately.
Thank you. The inpatient I am going to is the best in the state they will figure it out. They really listen and they have all meds and help at hand in case something doesn’t work
That’s great. Good luck!