God, if You are Here or There


I am writing this post in response to a great post that another user added to the forum. I am writing this to God. I know that who I am and what I’ve done confuses even me. I have issues but love is very prevalent in my life. If I could hear your voice even on risperidone and quetiapine, my heart and soul would melt. When I pray, I pray for everyone; unlike during my selfish teenhood ten years ago. Is my empathy and degree of altruism completely selfless? I don’t know. I have had so much delusional thinking about you and even hallucinations that drive my obsessive-compulsive issues… but really, this aside… I love this universe, this existence… Thank you.