Have you ever thought in your psychosis dreams that you would get rich at some point? I have and i think i have spent lots of money because of it. I have also realised many times that i was just hallucinating and im just a normal dude.
Its weird now to be in a situation where my psychosis is so far ahead that i can actually see that i could make some money out of it. I just know i will talk myself out of it and say its not what really mattersā¦ What are your thoughts?
I thought I invented bitcoin in a distant past life/parallel universe but I got schizophrenia and seem to be stuck in a time loop/causal loop so I donāt have any money and I suffer. Itās a delusion. My delusion said I could have been worth several billion dollars but it turned out itās fake, not real, and not true. Itās a lie I told myself.
I think its more like one in a thousand heheā¦ ive always felt like i would become something but lately things have been so good that i wonder if its even necessary to go further because i know whats important now. Its now mostly related to getting to know people
Getting rich from psychosis is like saying a person can become wealthy by having cancer. There is no correlation with having a medical disease and making money.
I think bipolar is an exception especially if itās controlled or mild. It can cause increased productivity and creativity. Unfortunately, schizophrenia has made it nearly impossible for me to earn/make money.
I wrote a book about my psychotic break in 2014. No one cares or wants to read it. I had a fantasy dream that I could make a movie about it. I still suffer from this delusion.
Same hereā¦I thought they made movies about me: John Titor and Satoshi Nakamoto, but itās not real, really. Iām not these persons but itās just a schizophrenia thing. I believe SOME of itā¦but not really. I had the John Titor delusion for 5+ years now after I discovered it.
Recently, I thought I created bitcoin too, but apparently not.
First I donāt remember anything; second, I donāt have the keys or wallet or original computer; and I have no memory or recollection.
The truth is no one cares about me and even if I wrote a book, it would be censored from everyone (big tech) and would be garbage/conspiracy crap with a very small audience.
I had fantasies I would be famous and rich and a genius and all that crap but it turned out to be nothing, really.
Iāll tell you the craziest memory (delusion) I had was that I dated Nina Dobrev in another dimension and she told me they made a vampire TV Show about me called āVampire Diariesā (past life/future thing/parallel universe) where I was the hero/good guy and even though I was ugly and not attractive or anything and possibly poor I was Stefan Salvatore lol the main character. The dreams have since befuddled me and confused me because I think there are possible other films where it was based on me, but I do remember these experiences in another life. I retained the memories and I also thought I was Polish and crap, but I turned out to be Belgian insteadā¦
I guess things changed due to the Butterfly Effect and different lives, really.
Itās quite embarassing to have these false memories that seem so realā¦
I once dreamt I was living in much larger house than where I live presently. Granted, itās landed but still would be nice to live in a good class bungalow over here. Ah wellā¦