I’ve been trying for a couple weeks but there’s been some communication problems. Hoops. There should be no hoops. It should be so simple that a quivering, mindless, idiot could do it. But it wasn’t easy, and that’s really concerning to me. I intend on complaining so that what happened to me won’t happen to someone in the middle of withdrawals because they may not call back and get to the bottom of it and get the services they need to succeed.
That aside I do my intake on Tuesday. With my primary motivation gone, I’m finding myself saying “just one more time” “just once” “no one will know”. Walking away from this good distance I’ve put between it and me doesn’t seem to bother me at all. If it walked in my door, I would use and that terrifies me. I wonder when I’ll ever be safe.