Getting close to breaking down

[Joker]

I am starting to get myself in a bit of a state.

Stupidly I tried to drop down on the benzos quicker than the pdoc said and I feel so rough

They told me the Pregabalin would take the Diazepams place, but it sure as hell doesn’t seem to be

On top of that I am facing a guaranteed med change, as my prolactin I am not happy about

Not sure I have the energy right now to deal with all this

My psychologist is leaving and I will have no one to talk to

the case manager seems useless as he is shielding from the virus and I have had no proper contact with him for weeks now.

I quit my job back in March this year, and started Landscaping. I now am on my last project, and I have no where to go next

It pains me financially as I have spent hundreds on marketing to try and get work, and the waiting is killing me. I need more certainty.

I am due to go on holiday next week with my parents, and it feels like I am going to ruin it for them being like this.

Please don’t post anything about suicide hotlines, as they will just send ambulances or police cars round like before

Not sure what to do about all this. I am trying to keep calm but naturally this is all a bit much for me to deal with

I was supposed to have this conversation with the therapist today, but it was too much so we just went for a walk instead as I really couldn’t go into all this.

Even so, I was close to coming out to my parents some time soon, until last night when I was round their house and my step dad started being homophobic about the weather man on the TV, which has closed that door right in my face

This is a ■■■■■■■ mess and I don’t even know where to start.

TLDR? Sorry

[Joker]

Just read what I just wrote.

■■■■■■■ 1st world problems, ay?

[Aziz]

@Joker

I tried to drop down on the benzos quicker than the pdoc sai

Not a good idea, I got nasty withdrawals by reducing my risperdal on my own. Tics and all day severe headaches. Either get back to the last dose before you messed up or live with the withdrawals for a few days or few weeks. I think benzos withdrawal is worse than antipsychotics.

[Hadeda]

I hope your reduction of amisulpride will go ok. Be careful with it and hope it goes well.

[Leaf]

That’s an overwhelming list of problems. You have a lot going on right now. I can understand why you would be feeling like you were close to breaking down. I hope talking about helped a little. The best thing to do is tackle each problem one at a time the best you can and ask for help from your friends and family when you need to. Hopefully you can get your head straight for holiday with your parents and enjoy that time because it would do you good to have that time away.

[Joker]

Thanks for replying @Leaf @Hadeda & @Aziz

I just got off the phone to out of hours and told them how I feel right now.

They’re going to inform the doctors etc a nicer version from a neutral party, and maybe something might happen.

Tried that before, but the message will probably end up in a black hole as usual.