Had a minor argument with my brother and I imploded with anger. As it was an implosion nobody noticed and I also carried on as if I wasn’t angry so nobody doubly noticed. I’m not angry anymore now so it’s all cool.
Then I got an email from a married woman I know , she just sent a photo of her and her kids and wished me happy new year etc. I used to really have a big crush on her and some of that came to the surface again for me. Then it kind of went away again.
So much for not having emotions/blunted effect.
I think it’s more accurate to say I have the emotions of a 16 year old when I do have them.