I don’t know exactly what’s happening to me. Since I started working with my dad, I started to hate people. I don’t want to talk to them. The thing with this job is that I have to follow rules, and these rules make me stifled. I want to feel energized, but most of the time I feel depleated. I need time for myself in order to recover, but, at the same time, I’m away from people. I’m not physically away from them, but emotionally of course I am. I want to love people, because each one has a joy to share. I want to smile to people, and not just acting in automate pilot.
I know that many people wanted this job that I have, but it’s quite hard to put it into my mind and change perspective. It’s transitory I know but today I asked to be at home to take a breath. I’m not being lazy. I’m just taking a breath to recover my mental state.
What’s up, @far_cry0! Thanks! I want to be better. I got a bit confused these days when I wanted to discover my passion. When I read posts about people following their passions, I feel jealous. They talk about a subject with much passion and I wanted it as well.
The problem with being sociable and liking people is a big one and may take a long time to overcome. The only thing you can really do about it is talk to some people (like a therapist) and keep working at it. It is talking me years. It seems to me like it might be a life-long problem. In the meanwhile I think you could accept the problem and keep going to work, and keep trying to be cheerful.
Sorry to sound pessimistic, but this is my experience too.
Hang in there! Maybe you just need some time to recuperate. Perhaps you are spending too much time around people. Is it too much for you? Are you really doing what you want to do and what feels right for you?