Hi everyone, I haven’t posted in a while as I have been doing pretty well, but had a scare last night that I’d like to share with you all.
I fell asleep after getting home from my part time job at around 1 in the morning. I had a terrifying dream in which I had gone completely insane. The feelings that came along with the dream were so intense that I’d compare it to what i imagine hell would be like. The dream felt like it lasted forever. Immediately when I woke up from it, around 4 or so in the morning, my mind was racing so fast with a spinning image that was clearly in my vision. It danced around and I tried to focus in on it, meanwhile the anxiety I felt in my chest had turned into a burning sensation that spread throughout my entire body. But I could never make out what the image was. It looked almost like a blurry logo of some sort. The thoughts that came along with this were things like, wow this illness is only going to progress and get worse. This has happened a few times to me before. It’s almost like watching a television show in fast forward. Anyway, it was a terrifying experience and I’m still recovering from it tonight. My questions are:
Does anyone know what this is? Have you experienced anything similar? It felt to me as if it was just the definition of insanity. Eventually I will always be in a state like that. I hope these thoughts aren’t true. Other than that i have been managing to get through my days. But this was just very scary and strangely interesting at the same time. Thanks for reading.