My friends always are like “how do you pay for that” and I’m like “work and disability” then they get envious and say “you’re disabled bro?” I just ignore them…like they’re trying to put me down in multiple ways. Then the inevitable comes and they say “maybe I can fake it so I can get on disability”. I’m like OK you fake your way through shitty psych wards six times then you can treach your lazy arse to the social security office in the hood 
which these kids would never do. Then they begin getting empathy and ask me a billion questions about sz. It’s annoying they don’t understand. Oh well I’ll do me they can do them.
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Like there’s nothing I’d trade to not have to be on disability…but there’s no way I could work with this illness full time
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People can be real jerks sometimes. They probably just assumed you are healthier than you are and got annoyed or something. Sz/sza is in many ways an invisible disease, especially when your positive symptoms are under control.
I am looking forward to attempting to work again (have to wait because I get money from the government and they have so many rules and long waiting lists, it’s ridiculous), but I am barely able to keep my apartment clean so I don’t have high hopes.
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I could barely keep my apartment clean but when I volunteered at the nature center which was a cleaning job for the most part, my instincts kicked in and I did it pretty well. Of course I could only do ten hours per week but you’d be surprised what can do under the pressure of others. Thanks treebeard
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Don’t forget having to take anti-psychotic medication.
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I live in India you get sh*t here for disability
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Psh they’re basic, I’m finna apply for disability too doe, tired of being average… 
(There are inner city kids in my group therapy, and I worship the way they talk)…
i am grateful for disability… 
but i would rather work. 
take care 
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Oh boy isn’t it great to wake up in the morning with nothing to do and no plausible future to have? It’s so much fun waiting on others to pick you up to take you places, or to have the alternative of working and driving a very cheap car. Also isn’t it great for someone at a store to notice you are using food stamps and call you a loser? And you get to take so many wonderful drugs that magically expand your waistline. And when you hear stories about someone making the grade and getting an important position or you see someone doing a much higher wage job than you ever did that you once wanted to do you can say I love my life. And when you attend events in public or with your family this holiday you can talk all about the Psych Ward experiences you had this year and realize your only achievement for the year is how long you haven’t been in one. And when you realize the only way to eat healthily is to skip almost everything in the store and never eat the fun stuff you can say this is great. And when you hear the shots from a murder a few blocks away and realize that hey it’s not very safe here you can say "It’s just like a Hollywood movie about the bad part of town. So why don’t you fake an illness and become practically meaningless to a society which only wants you to survive? Any takers?
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I have a lot more suicidal thoughts than I used to. That can’t be healthy. Working can be a pain, but I was optimistic - maybe a little manic. Being well on disability is one thing, but with a mental health condition it is not living really is it.
I never talk about the disability I receive from Social Security. Many people are just so judgmental and mean-spirited. They think if you aren’t paralyzed from your eyebrows down that you don’t deserve any help. What they don’t understand, especially about mental illness, is that in many cases it can be a lot cheaper to provide people with financial support for food, housing, medical care, etc, then paying for them to use the ER, locking them up, or having them roam the street homeless.
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