I actually am going on five weeks without a cigarette. It sucks. My friends smoke, I see people smoke, I want to smoke, but instead I chew a piece of that damn gum every hour or two.
I had been smoking a pack a day and at parties I smoked even more, and I had started smoking when I was 18 and I have been 21 for less than three months so I quit out of “nip it in the bud” thinking. I can sit in a room for hours without having to go outside to smoke now. That’s good. Lots of people chew gum so I dont really have a trace of it on me- only people who know me know that im chewing nicotine gum and not normal gum.
One of my friends quit two years ago and he chews normal gum like insane, seriously he is constantly chewing gum.
I think that video is of REALLY BAD like LIFETIME HEAVY SMOKER’S lungs, not someones lungs after less than a pack a day for a year and then a pack a day for two. But I have noticed that I dont cough up stuff anymore and that cigarettes smell bad now that I have quit.
And a friend I had a casual relationship with said I tasted like an ashtray but my looks overrode the bad taste. My looks override a lot of things for some people. That and I do have my ■■■■ together as in what I am doing with my life. Said peer met me in an honors psychology class. He hollered at me as I was leaving a class and wanted to chat, noticed I was chewing gum and asked “nicarette?”
I do miss the psychological aspect of smoking. The habit of smoking is tied to the effects of carbon monoxide, nicotine, and all of the other crap they put in camels. Just the act of opening up my cigarette case and grabbing my lighter triggers a five minute long process of drugs. Nicotine is by definition a drug. I have nightmares of smoking and buying cigarettes now. I had one really bad nightmare of a cougar (old woman who seeks out young male partners) smoking a cigarette talking to me in a hotel lobby. I wanted out. I had another nightmare of buying the same brand of smokes that I bought on the way to my evaluation when I was 19. That’s not a good memory at all.
But I have written papers which covered the topic of smoking habits in schizophrenics. To put a lot of formal work into vernacular, schizers are chimneys. When I was diagnosed, he smelled the smoke on me and asked me how much I smoked and even said it contributed to my diagnosis. There was a little bit of question as to if I was faking insanity because of how highly I functioned and how well groomed I was and how articulate my speech was, but the MMPI-2 said I was not lying and that I was very insane. Most schizophrenics smoke a lot of cigarettes. Between 80 and 90% of diagnosed schizophrenics are smokers, and most of them are fairly heavy smokers who smoke strong cigarettes, not lights, and smoke at least a pack a day.
I remember when I started to descend into madness and how my drug, alcohol and tobacco use when from privileged white prep school boy level into literally “insane” level in like a month. I had been smoking pot like two-three times a week, smoking like 5 cigarettes every night after school and training, and drinking socially once in a blue moon. I began to smoke constantly, smoke pot multiple times a night, and drink whenever I saw a bottle of liquor or a keg of beer, which was not very often until I went to college.