The fog is back and it’s thick again and I got disoriented in the fog last night and ended up lost three blocks away from my place. I felt like such a dummy. Does anyone else get lost when they leave the house?
I had to go into a coffee shop that I found and beg to use the phone so my sis could come get me.
We switched rooms yesterday. I got up at 1:00 a.m. to use the restroom and out of habit walked into my old room (her new room) and just climbed into bed and then freaked out that she was in the bed and kicked her out. So she goes to her old room in my bed and then I remembered… (oh dang… we switched rooms) so I went to my bed, woke her up and said “Ok, go back to your bed and I’ll be in mine” So she left again.
I was getting agitated by the fog and looking out for peepers… and anyone who happened to be walking their dog or just taking the cut to the pier I was thinking… “is it them?” So I was getting paranoid staring into the fog. Just wide eyed gazing into the fog I was seeing things.
Being in that room with all the windows was getting to me so I had to switch rooms again. She didn’t like being woken up and kicked out of bed again so she got her sleeping bag and said she would get out of the pj’s and get dressed and go sleep in the car. That did it… As soon as I said it… “NO! you can not sleep in the car. NO! You know who hides in the fog… kidnappers” OH bugger,… my brain is going right back there. It all started to unravel. So after she talked me down from that ledge we both slept in the living room.
This is stupid night and a silly idea and we’re both exhausted. We have to switch rooms back for real today.
I am not happy to see the fog come back. I’m taking the bus today because I already know I’m in no shape to drive. Hallucinations acting up but voices oddly calm.
I might need to up the Xanax until the fog patch clears. Fog never used to get to me like this… But then it’s never stuck around for five days either.