I love em though but they can be too hysterical n intense and o overwhelming so that I feel panic and overwhelming things and that I can not cope feeling it.
One of them is very close and loved by me but I should feel my boyfriend inside me too…
His spirit etc
Blessed they be the ones I feel inpray for and love but they should not make me psychotic or sick.
Winter is turning out beautiful today. It is sunny and sky is cloudless and blue but there is a cold wind that reminds you it is winter time. I live in Hawaii. I went to day treatment, finally got an interview for substitute teaching, came to the mall to shop for my friend’s birthday present, and am now about to go to my support group. I really hope I get the substitute teaching job! Next on my goal list is saving up for coding bootcamp and look at art classes.
I am having a bad day myself honestly. I feel like ■■■■.
I went to gym and they had changed the schedule without notifying the members?! I was angry but I took 20 minutes spinning class then did regular yoga for one hour//
I don’t think I will ever do spinning again. I guess it is an excellent exercise for gluteus but my a$$ hurt so much from that freakin chair?! who designed this crap, someone should change it!
I can’t sleep. Or, rather, I can’t sleep anymore. I did sleep for about an hour, but then I woke up and now I’m wide awake. I’m sure being on my phone isn’t doing me any favors. Usually I stay off of it at night, but I’m so awake and so so bored.
I hate myself right now I’m thinking about doing something really terrible to myself and I don’t know how to stop it. I’m really trying to distract myself but I’m just so low today.