My boyfriend and I have been invited to a New Year’s Eve party.
We have a room booked to stay the night.
Thing is I avoid these social things and lots of people because I often go mute and feel like someone else.
It can feel hysterical but it is someone else in my body.
I love but i do not cope then.
I worry about woman seducing him and raping him while he is drunk .
I just do not feel I am well enough to attend this event.
It can feel so horrid and I would not be able to go home if I did not feel well because we would go in same car and it’s a stay over.
I might stay with the dogs instead and try an trust he can protect himself from seductive woman who try rape him and make him horny and who have big tits and tight mouse.
But if I did go I may suffer to much and not be able to hold conversation.
I must trust my man.
I have been to a local bbq but I could walk home if I was not coping but this party is far away.
A couple hours perhaps.
Have you been invited to a party you do not feel you can attend because of symptoms?
I am social bubbly spirit sometimes and long to socialise but I just can not in person.
Maybe in spirit I can be there.