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Thanks, I needed this.
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If free will exists, it doesn’t work like this.
How do you mean?
i had a very poignant reply hidden about this very topic, ironic isnt it lol
Nice quote but this won’t save me from the voices i’m afraid. 
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No, but just because the voices are tormenting you doesn’t mean you have to take it and suffer forever. You can be proactive to help yourself feel better by doing things like going to the doctor when you need help, taking your medicine, opening a window when you feel stuck.
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Sing it sister!!!
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Today, I feel like my body is stuck under a heavy weight. I’m angry and irritable and not much is making sense to me. I want to breathe and get fresh air but I don’t feel like I’m physically able. So i opened my front door and took a deep breath and sat back down on the couch. That’s what I was capable of today and I feel better for trying. I am not helpless. Maybe one day I’ll do more, but I’m not giving up and just surrendering to belong helpless and suffering forever until I die.
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I keep thinking about my breakdown.
I’m trying to restructure it in my mind as something terrifying but not real.
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Oh man. That’s hard. Reassuring yourself constantly is exhausting.
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Breakdown…just one? I’ve had “a few” not fun🤗
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Yeah. Everyone around me keeps reassuring me, too, and I don’t like that that weighs on their shoulders as well. 
It’s gonna be a while before I’m better. Can’t things speed up a little? 
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This is how free will works, by having choices open to you because you learned about them, somewhere.
Oh gosh, I’m sorry! They really are devastating! How are you doing now?
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Went to cardio got good news and prepping dinner
I think I had my first when I was 4 cuz my mom left me at park overnight and strangers found me in a tree. Sz didn’t start til later in life but childhood definitely left some holes
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Yeah it’s like a 50/50 battle with these paranoid delusions. half of me says this isn’t rational, it couldn’t be true. Then the other half says but what if, it is possible. I do not like this fear.
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I’ve lost count of my psychotic episodes. 
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+1. I’ve been having them off and on for like 15 years now. I’ve been in more hospitals than I can count, too. The summer I was diagnosed sz was one year long psychotic break even though they kept reassuring me it was over and they would release me and then I’d end up back in the hospital in a few days/week. Over and over. I barely remember any of it.
I do remember I lost my insurance at one point because I lost my job and I was on high doses of oxycontin for the last 5 years or so and had to cold turkey stop taking them because I could no longer afford them. So on top of being completely psychotic I was going through the most excruciating opiate withdrawals at the same time. It was a nightmare. I lost pretty much all my friends that year.
The rest of my psychotic breaks seemed mild in comparison at least.
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