My hairdresser who normally does my hair has left.
Atmosphere in there was very different. I hate going to get my haircut but it needed to be done. Plus I don’t wear makeup so lately i decided to start getting eyebrows tinted and waxed so I had that done too. That meant a long time there.
It appeared some staff were talking about me ? Bit*** about me and smirking ?
Now the hairdresser who did my hair was lovely. I want to go back to her. But I can’t stop wondering why and the only conclusion i can come to regarding this situation is last time I was there I was coming off qutiapine without drs recommendations (I am back on medication now) and perhaps i was not myself. Maybe I was a bit irratic I think and saying some odd things.
I feel like perhaps they have seen me around the town in group walks and know I have schizophrenia and are judging me?
It’s ideal for me to go there because I can get everything done under one roof,… eyes done and hair which makes life easier. And I need to go back before Christmas to keep up appearances but I feel very uncomfortable.
This may sound like a silly post and something silly to worry about. It’s iust been on my mind. Perhaps I have offended them deeply. This one girl kept looking at me and talking. She seemed like a complete …u know what.
Just don’t know what I’ve done. Told my mum. She said she would go in with me next time and sit in the waiting area. But i don’t want to appear less of an independent person.
Yeah seems like paranoia and symptoms acting up I hope you have a better experience next time.
I never liked haircuts, it’s always something to get out of the way for me. It is so boring to sit still for so long doing nothing and I’m so bad at small talk it’s awkward.
Could it be that they just appeared to be talking about you? I had a hard time at first when I went to the gym. I used to think that every time someone laughed, they were laughing at me. It took me a while to realize that they were probably laughing at a joke that had nothing to do with me. I think it is just paranoia. Perhaps the same is true for you?
Could she have been doing shop duties like checking on who had customers or how many customers were in the store, or if anyone was in the waiting room? (instead of looking at you and then talking about you).
I’m pretty sure it was just paranoia causing you to overthink things. People in general actually don’t pay much attention to those around them unless they’re really acting out like ranting and raving or running around naked.
Small talk kills me as well. My new barber just opened her shop and she is so sweet though she had to keep putting her hands on my shoulders to get me to relax a few times.
Good point. I think so plus my sisters friend is a beautician and has been bullied in the past at her workplace with all sorts of gossip. So yeah I def know about the gossip that goes on there.