I’m facing a tough situation right now. I can’t talk about my problems with my parents because they don’t understand at all. I can’t afford a therapist. I only see a pdoc once a month. I’m stressed out daily. I tried making friends but my mom told me I can’t talk about my psychosis (vulnerability is a taboo) or vent to them.
How am I supposed to get through this? I can’t do this anymore.
you’ll just have to talk to us
I don’t really know, I’m just paranoid right now because I’m worried that my information is being leaked to a spy.
I’m worried that my identity will get exposed and everyone will know who I am…I’m scared and I feel like the only answer is suicide.
suicide is not the answer for sure. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Whatever you are going through will change with time.
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can you put up the suicide numbers
I had a really strong delusion that a satellite was following me and tracking where I was going. Getting on the right medication, and adding two more made the really severe delusions and thoughts of suicide greatly diminish. I would definitely call your psych ASAP, tell them what’s going on, and book an appointment right away. Don’t wait until you see them next.
They usually don’t respond…I’ve tried. Unfortunately the system doesn’t work like that here. 
Like I said…I’ve tried everything. I’ve run out of options. I can’t find another way out.
If you are feeling suicidal or having a mental health crisis, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a crisis intervention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries. You do not need to be actively suicidal to benefit from a crisis hotline.
International crisis hotlines:
Crisis hotlines in the U.S.:
https://www.thetrevorproject.org
More resources:
I wish the hotlines were helpful but they’re usually nonresponsive or super unkind.
I hope you guys don’t mind me writing stuff on this forum. As time goes I’m coming to the same conclusion again and again.
I’m hoping I can get my ■■■■ together as long as I can.
If someone on the hotline is rude, hang up and try another one. I’m so sorry they’re rude. You could also ask for a manager. It’s extremely wrong of them to be rude.
You can continue to talk to us and we want to help you. But you might need professional help we can’t give. But please continue to talk about it here. We’ll do the best we can
I wish I can get some professional help, at least a counselor. But I don’t want to do that to my parents.
I know that no one wants me around. That’s just how it is.
I would have to fake it until I make it.
But you getting a counselor to help you may make things much easier on your family. If there’s any chance at all of you getting the help you should go for it
I’ll try, but if I don’t improve in a number of sessions my mom starts to get frustrated. So it comes back to “fake until you make it” situation.
I don’t even know how I can deal with this. It’s just too much.
That’s why you need a professional to help. I think you should talk to a counselor and ask them if they can meet with your family to explain why life is so hard for you, especially with psychosis.
The place I go to for counseling has classes for family members. It can be really helpful
you seem so ashamed of your illness… i dont know why… noone should have to feel ashamed of being sick
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