first of all, im back briefly, this was on my mind today. i feel like im already being judged by history in a way by my friends and family who used to know me. i feel like they get together and talk about what im like. a little paranoia maybe, but they will all also probably outlive me and the same thing will happen when im dead. isnt it a little unsettling to feel judged by history? and can someone else really know the truth about you, or are they just piecing together a picture of you from times together?
also just learned today that dad is cancelling my streaming cable, usually i watch news 6pm-9pm so i may come on during those hours when i have nothing in my schedule. or he may go to a cheaper alternative and i may be away awhile. all i watch is 3 hours of news a day, haven’t even been watching sports lately. right now i used att tv, it was $45 bucks a month when we started but now it’s up to $70 bucks a month, and i only watch 3 channels which come on most services, espn, tnt, and cnn.