My mood has been a rollercoaster. I was manic and feeling great, then I was super depressed and suicidal, now I’m going manic again. It’s exhausting. I just need my mood to chill TF out.
I really want to dye my hair, I want to chop it off, too… I want to go buy lots of clothes… I want fancy coffee from Starbucks… I want to go show up at my old work and say “hi” to everyone (but my old boss isn’t texting me back)…
I want to be social (which is the opposite of normal me, socializing is exhausting). But I hung out with my friend, yesterday, and I had lots of fun. I want to hang out with my youngest brother now. I want to go see my dad, but I can’t cause he’s in England, ATM. I could go see my mom, maybe? No, I can’t, cause she’s working.
I don’t have any doctor appointments, today. I don’t know what to do with myself. I need to GO somewhere. Anywhere? I need to get out of the house. But I can’t spend any money, cause we’re broke. But I gotta do something…
Maybe I’ll go to the aquarium, all by myself (hubby is working). IDK. We have memberships, so it’s free admission for a year.
I am manic too … dr bombarded me with nasty 1st generation a.p… Thorazine 200mg …holy mother I am scared… will update about my situation tommrrow…I take Seroquel 400mg too…
I think you should go out, just to change the scenery and the enviorment.
First thing i would not panic, and not drink coffeine, think if you forgot your mood stabilazer, and dont take a lot of cash with you.
Second thing, is to not fight it to hard, after all, mania comes from a combination of thought patterns and emotions, what i do is, i search and label my manic emotions as manic emotions (this helps and ease them quite a lot) and try to label my manic thoughts as manic thoughts. i look inside myself and put labels on what i think, do and feel and this helps.
I know you can recognize the manic feelings by yourself, youre your own expert in yourself.
Think of a 3d model of mania, one is emotional, one is thinking and the most important is behaivoural.
What you do has cause and effect, what you think and not act on dosent.
Third thing, let your friends and family know where you are and how you feel
Crocodal: Thanks for the advice. I will definitely let my family know where I am. I usually tell my husband where I’m going, just so he doesn’t worry about me and knows where I am if something goes wrong.
Well, I actually just called my husband and told him how I’m thinking. He wants me to take my Clonazepam, which was prescribed for situations like this.
My next appointment is 1 week from today, August 31st.
Pdoc did say we might need to re-try meds I only took briefly, in the past. To see if they might actually be the one. I didn’t give some meds long enough to work because the side effects were too extreme. But maybe the side effects will die down over a couple of weeks if I re-try?
I really do need a change.
I hallucinated an entire person walking through the room, just yesterday. I thought it was my husband, at first, but when I tried to get a better look, they just weren’t there anymore. Creepy.
Yeah! I’m like, “Hey Honey, can you chop these vegeta— OH, it’s not you…” Just a hallucination trying to creep me out. Thanks, nonexistent person, you freaked me out for a second.
Gosh, the nerve of these figments of my mind. “Get a life, dude. Quit stalking me.”
I’m craving stimulants: more coffee, some beer (also a depressant), buying things (for the rush of satisfaction), I want social stimulation (I’m home alone)…
I can’t drive now, because I recently took some Clonazepam. Can’t drive on Clonazepam.
I am losing my mind. I feel too paranoid now to take doggos for a walk around the neighborhood. Can’t do that.
Maybe I’ll make chamomile lavender tea. That’s a good drink.
hey @Blossom im kinda going through the same thing, tbh i think now that its autumn a lot of people are starting to have mental health issues.
my only advice i could give is to make a checklist of healthy activities and make sure to hit all those goals every day. thats kinda what im on at the moment.
sunlight (fights depression in a huge way)
herbs/meds
hot shower
mint tea/ vaporub to relax
read one page
drink a lot of water
sleep early
clean
these are just some ideas. the days i do my checklist vs the day i dont, i feel way different.
I’m sorry that you are cycling @Blossom
I would try to relax.
Don’t overstimulate yourself.
Maybe take the clonazepam and relax in a dark room for a while.
sunlight (fights depression in a huge way)