Today was a very long day. For first time since coming to stay with my sister almost two weeks ago, the high has gone and I’m falling falling falling. She and girls are at work all day in week and I’m alone with dogs and bird.
Usually would keep myself busy and watch movies or read etc. But now had no interest in anything at all.
Reading? Abandoned book
Movies? Not interested
Series? Not interested
Music? Lost its appeal
Dancing? Too tired
Looking for a work from home job? No strength at moment
Prayers? Too much effort
Nothing but messing around on phone and sleeping for hours in day.
I’m just existing
The high has gone and now I’m empty empty empty
Thought of cutting - but even that is too much effort…