When I was waiting to take a test on Friday, so many people came by to talk to me and asked how I was doing. I was thankful for them saying hello, but I was so confused why they would say hi because I believed there is no virtue in saying hi to me. I don’t understand their compliments, and the small talk that they do before heading off to the next exam. Yes- thank you for paying attention to me- but am I really worth a portion of your time?
Also, while we were waiting in the corridor, a giant house centipede appeared and tried to crawl on one of the classmates that was sitting on the floor. We were freaking out and screaming because the centipede was quite big and didn’t want to budge. So I did what I could- kill the centipede with my mobility aid. Everyone cheered over the centipede’s demise. I told my mother this and she scolded me saying that I was showing off and being a nuisance to everyone. I didn’t understand this because you wouldn’t want to keep the students screaming while there are tests being taken around the hallway. So I didn’t understand my mom’s words because I did what I could do.
Is killing a bug a cultural thing? I was so confused.
Anyway, the interaction I had on Friday made me realize I have more acquantinces than I realized. But I’m not sure if those interactions are genuine or they’re just saying in obligation because they feel sorry for my disability. I don’t think I’m that great of a person and not really worth their time. I’m thankful nonetheless, though.