The past two days I have had awful panic attacks at night. The shadows on my parents faces looks weird. The window in the front has really dark shadows. I keep thinking my parents are looking at me and judging me.
I am perfectly fine until about an hour till dinner. Then panic and anxiety creep in. And paranoia. I don’t know if it’s just the fact I know I have to be around people for dinner or what.
Being around ppl triggered my paranoia especially going out of my house. Raising my Risperdal from 3mg to 4mg fixed the issue. I was even paranoid of ppl on the forum sometimes.
I was paranoid about my mother in law but now I’m paranoid about my husband and father in law and siblings as well. Because I’m going to be getting divorced and scared my husband will hurt me. He has history of violence (although not really to me)
Does the paranoia ever get better? Or will I always feel this way. Family came over for early thanksgiving and I just went to my room. I couldn’t handle being around all those people
Thanksgiving went okay. My sister came with her family. Her and her husband are thinking of splitting up so there was a lot of tension. Like my worst nightmare to be around. Not to mention her whiny kids. Next year I might go to a restaurant