It seems I am not the only one who feels that at times.
I apolagise to you guys if I rant a lot or blabber about myself and vent.
I know long posts about me venting can seem self obsorbed or too long to read.
Wishing all of you guys well.
I think you should be proud of yourselves.
I am actually proud of myself despite being a pussy .
I am proud for the things I do and can do such as assisting my man , doing dishes, getting mail , feeding woffers and holy neigher etc
I am also proud of who I am despite a few flaws.
I do miss seeing profiles people around the forum when they have been gone s while.
I may not always remember the names of all profiles but do miss youzzz when have not seen you online for a while in forum.
I really want to appreciate you guys in /on the schizophrenia forum.️
I reckon you guys are great.
I want to pray for you guys and our schizophrenic community and appreciate you all.
I pray almost daily saying thank you for my boyfriend and his woffers and my neigher and our home and cars.
And my ability that I do have and our food etc
I want to appreciate schizophrenia forum members.
God bless you guys!!!
As for the Nazi like views (not yours but some people in world still think like that)that disabled people who are not productive should be killed I do not agree with that.
If I can not serve my community or country or the world n space etc I might serve them some how by my existence .
If one keeps open mind to someone s eons etc
Just seeing someone around can do wonders.
I am a pussy (nicer version of saying coward)
In so many ways which is considered a ugly trait although it has been made to comedy in movies.
I serve and assist my man and he does great and serves his community and country amazingly.
Even little things can help or just loving.
A cuddle a smile …
I wanted to work but just can not and do not feel up to employment.
I rather volunteer.
If I can or just keep assisting my man around home .
Although I do not smile often not laugh often.
Even those who feel they do not give anyone happiness I think are wrong.
I may not be all coward because I moved here by myself to my bf.
And moved my neigher here too.
Also when I had my ovaries removed I think I woke up in surgery and asked if our children are safe despite being in agony so I could have my miraculous rare occasions of a pinch of bravery.
I do not have children so could of been a delusion.
I had spiritual experience of giving birth around great happy loving spirit s.
It is a dangerous place I live at actually and I love it but am afraid of it’s dangers and not being able to take action in catastrophic situation so I would hope some one else give me a hand.
I moved to a very different place.
I lived walking distance to beach in a pretty safe place to live and the move was huge .
I thought I might need hospitalisation but thankfully my bf gave me sleeping pill and put me to bed.
I love and care for my boyfriends woffers too.
My neigher is one of the best things to ever happen to me.
I would like to be with her more often but her food is so expensive that I am trying to save petrol by visiting her less often as she has full care where she is Agisted.
I want to make sure she has good food.
She has just had a vet file her teeth and vaccinations.
Golly it was expensive and I saved up for it.
My boyfriend has a dangerous volunteer work and I find it difficult when he goes on call out .
He is a great partner and leader.