I am having a bad day. Just a whole lot of resentment and depression.
I resent my life I guess - being born altogether.
I don’t know how to be happy anymore. I don’t know what to do.
I have to go to exercise tonight and don’t feel like it. I might go - maybe it’d change my mood.
Hang in there cherie. Depression is tough to deal with. I think exercise helps by keeping your mind off things. I hope you feel better soon.
Thanks :hug: I wanna move on - feel better - let go - and focus on my life. I don’t know how.
The best thing for you now is going to the gym. Take it from one who knows. Don’t just skip it out of whimsy. Make it a priority like eating.
I wanna erase 99.9% of my memories and resentment and experience and life. I don’t know what is wrong with me.
Maybe I can place my head in the washing machine?
Maybe just give it some time to pass. And I agree with chordy. Try to keep yourself occupied in other things maybe. That’s what I do to not dwell on things. I go for a walk when I’m thinking too much. Oh and I’d advise against sticking your head in a washing machine.
I have so much work with extremely picky clients and out of patience…!!! ahhhhhhhh
anyway I will just have a glass of gin and tonic tonight - I deserve it!!!
You have to build new memories. It starts with the first step. Do something just to make a memory.
I don’t know what - I am empty and ungrateful and rarely satisfied!!!
The only thing I like is live by the sea or an ocean and just watch the sunset every day. And swim and go fishing.
I can not think of anything else…
My only happy memory was my travel last year to Dominican republic and sailing in the caribbean.
I am talking to myself all day long.
Do you live by a sea now? Do you have any money for doing things or are you “living on a shoestring”?
I have enough money to support a good life and travel sometimes. But not sure how I can move to an island.
This whole 2016 and now has been a disaster … I am not sure what to do - and moving out now is not a good idea.
I live in Quebec and don’t like it… it is cold and grey.
I think I have to do the switch to Geodon and see what happens. I was so much more happy/normal/functional on that med and I guess I’ll deal with the side effects.
I have been very delusional too =(
Do what works. Nobody completely understands the mysteries of meds, imo.
The Caribbean is amazing. I’ve never been to the Dominican Republic although I have some friends from there who say it’s amazing. Having symptoms and depression is very difficult. I think finding the right meds would help even though I sometimes hate the side effects. Better to be less crazy and depressed than crazy and depressed, I figure. Whatever the case, I don’t know what the weather is like in Canada but the Caribbean sea is amazing. I don’t think you can find that in Canada.
I am just having a bad day =(
In May I will go to Costa Rica =) so something to look forward to. I just wish I could find the thrill in my life… there is an empty hole…
Well at least it’s only a bad day and not a bad week. If you ever get the chance to visit Cancun, I’d highly recommend it. I haven’t traveled much since diagnosis. I did go to Las Vegas but I don’t remember much hah.
I just need some happy distractions. I am having a weird day I guess. =)
Need to think some happy thoughts. I will do the EMDR therapy for 15 minutes and later go to the gym.
What do you do at the gym?
Strength, cardio, both?(to Cherie)
Yeh I am doing 10 minutes cardio and 20 minutes strength. Trying to desperately lose weight.
It seems a short period to me, both the strength and the cardio.( to Cherie)
Currently dealing with the same thing, right now.
I’m trying not to be resentful and bitter to others and also to myself. It’s a hard thing to do, especially when people are non-stop with their shitstorms.
I hope you feel better soon, and you can message me if you need to talk to someone.