It might mean that you’re insecure about your relationship with him. I wouldn’t worry about it too much. But be careful. This kind of thing can become a self fulfilling prophecy.
To say the least, I hallucinate him and his family talking about me all the time, can’t even step foot in his house anymore. My offensive brain kept throwing up “*** in not ugly” against my will, and i feel it coming on so i fight hard to correct it otherwsie it would just say “*** is ugly”.
I’ve explained to everyone time and time again in my head that its against my will, just why if everyone couuld hear my thoughts, would i think such horrible things on purpose?! noone would!
And it’s spilled into my dream world last night, where his mum said “i’m going to tell *** what you said, so i said " for one its against my will, two i corrected it before i could even think that” and then my boyfriend called me fake, so i was like what? and he was like you’re just a fake bitch…
So clear to me, he doesn’t believe its against my will.